Ladies and Gentlemen, I'M FUCKING OVER IT.

(Thursday, June 23, 2005 10:23 AM)

Being:
-Shat upon.
-Misunderstood.
-Taken advantage of.
-Taken for granted.
-Manipulated.

Do I invite this? I do want to be happy,...honestly...

Overall, I'm feeling the effects of one, actually a few corrosive elements in my life. It's gradually worn me down to a bare minimum of sorts. It's brought me to this dull apex of feeling nothing,...of feeling morally lax, of feeling sour, dry, empty,..of feeling very far away from being myself(if not reevaluating who I am). I've been here before, and now I've returned with a different haircut and a few more wrinkles, sans leather jacket.

But I must apologize on behalf of said "corrosive elements",...it's only a matter of time before some people realize that IAMTHEMOSTINTENSEMOTHERFUCKERALIVE. My life is slated to either be a short-lived tragedy or a blinding success, there is no in between, there is no gray. Stay tuned, for this is the twist in the plot, this is the turning point, this is the time of making or breaking....

And I'll see you in HHEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLLLL!!!!!!!

p.s.(The Bella Lea show and the company and the beer and the full moon were good to me tonight,...in spite of all this wreckage)